QotD: I'm So Excited

What most excites you about the way you're living your life right now?

I'm finally figuring out how to really define who I am - something I've been trying to do for a long time and am just now finding a way to succeed at...

It was part intentional, part unintentional (I meant to take a year off of school, and I knew that I had some healing to do emotionally and that was honestly one of my reasons for taking time off.  I did not mean to be at home for the better part of that year - I meant to be in Italy doing something productive while still being able to have time to figure everything out), but it's finally happening.  Since I've been home I've been A: relieved, B: at times, depressed, C: recently -happy and D: free to do all of the healing and searching that I desperately needed with the help of A, B, and C. 
And having been able to do that (and continue doing it - it's kind of an ongoing, neverending process, I think) has allowed me to still be frustrated with my family sometimes, but remember that I love them.  To be with friends and not, after a certain time, feel the need to withdraw into a corner and hide from the world, to actually truly enjoy myself in large groups of friends (small groups I never had trouble with).  To be in a relationship - the beginnings of one, anyway -  and completely be myself, to not let "me" disappear into "us". 

It helps to have kind of purged my life of any emotional... toxicity, I guess, is the word I want to use.  I've chosen to simply not have anyone in my life who makes it more difficult, who makes me feel stifled on any level, who makes me feel any less "me", who does more harm than good simply by being in my life.   As a result, my close friends are few, but some of the most wonderful people I've ever known.  I've just stopped talking to some people - I'm not rude, if one of these people tries to contact me, which happens from time to time, I'll respond, but I don't try to contact them.  And if they want to see me I usually have other plans.  I'm dating someone, but only after I felt comfortable that he wouldn't try to change me into someone who I'm not (and we have a lot in common, so it definitely doesn't look like that will ever be something I should worry about). 

So I guess that what excites me the most about the way I'm living my life right now is the fact that, for the first time in quite a while, I'm living my life as the best and truest form of myself, and nothing is standing in the way of that :)